Now Home

Now I'm lying on my bed for the last night at home before leaving to SH. Here now, this house, is more like home than ever solely because of His grace. I still remember vaguely last year this time this house was still filled with mistrust, disbelief, unremitted quarrels and complaints. Sometimes in a state of desperation I am, sometimes self-reproaching...And clearly I remembered my pleading prayer to Him to save me out of this and salvation comes to this house.

 Now here I am again. Family worship was started for the first time in this house.I lead, WE sing. It started with one listener and once hit 4 at the highest which means all the members in this house had joined. It started in the 1st Sunday I came and kept its form even in the very 1st day of the lunar new year and till the last.

The night before the first Sunday I preached (I still would like to call it preach though it's the miniest in terms of scale), I was filled with nervousness and worries, for fear that my request to worship at home would be declined and my message would not be well-communicated. But it was so readily approved by the "royal hostess of the house"——“Ok, but please be quick, I can;t afford too much time.”I tried to set the Royal Lady down with my playing guitar. The music soothed us both. "一切歌颂赞美","云上太阳","恩友歌","主赐给我的恩典"....Praise the Lord for this wonderful time. Though she did not sing but she enjoyed listening. Then after a brief prayer, I started teaching the message. As soon as I spoke out, the Lord helped me with it. Hardly could I imagine that I would become so bold to speak out the truth of eternity. But I know it's not me but Him that did it. Yes, I am just the very vessel.

My heart was softened generally by His love and I find my strength in loving the families that love me so much,and also in keeping to pray for their health and salvation for all.Praise God for the service I could hold in my Grandma's, the first-time-ever I spoke this truth to them. Thank Lord for the wonderful moment that my grandma of mother's side prayed the prayer of inviting Him into her heart.

One whole month staying at home has eventually become a pleasure and enjoyment—— being served by the ones that love me so much and serving them by ministering their hearts. It starts with unwilling reluctant ritual by lulling but ends with natural habit to make up the time to worship. Believe in Him and you and all your household will be saved. These words have never be so true to me as now.

They are now the sheep I nurture in the sense of spirit, I told myself and Him with joy and excitement.This is my start of the mission, the long journey I have embarked on.

Thank you, Lord.

Thanks for the translation project, I found the book Ben-Hur by Lew Wallace, a great book written by a man of true faith. The same as Ben-Hur, changed and renewed are also me and my households, one and after another, they will be know Him fully.

Yes, Thank you for loving me so much. My heart will sing no other name but yours
——Jesus, Jesus......